I wasn't even thinking. We were cutting mirror pieces for our kalidoscope in tech, and everyone was packed up cause it was the end. I was talking with my friend and he showed me his little mirror piece for stalking (he was gonna put it on his glasses like a rear view mirror). I suddenly really wanted one, and the next thing I knew I was at the saw,cutting away really loudly at a mirror piece for my own stalky needs. Pretty soon our teacher caught on and yelled at me from accross the room, asking what I was going. Obviously I couldn't tell him what I was really doing, that would be awkward. So I told a white lie. I needed a little piece for putting between the mirror pieces, a thing tons of other kids had been doing. But then, he HAD to go further into the conversation by saying didn't I already have mine taped together and everything? I did. I wasn't gonna lie again, people in the class knew I was done. So I said I was gonna make another one, that my first one didn't turn out right. By this point everyone was staring at me. My teacher said I shouldn't do that, and I put the piece back, half cut. But I'm pretty sure whenever he sees me now he's gonna think of me as that kid who acted like a 3-year-old in front of everybody.
I seriously think I have delayed emotional puberty. My body is developing, but I'm not becoming any more mature or wiser.
Sometimes I hate myself.
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